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信心是最大的财富

戴宗麟, 吉隆坡

我意识到,自身的改变,世界也会随之改变,而开启这股变革的力量,就是日莲佛法。

我出生于霹雳州和丰,从小就帮忙父亲的生意,打工赚钱购买自己喜爱的东西。出国读书时也兼职打工赚取额外的生活费。

我一直努力实现自己的目标,并认为没有什么是靠努力不能实现的事。

当女友跟我提及有关日莲佛法和创价学会时,我完全不感兴趣。我认为高品质的生活是可以通过努力获取的,所以宗教信仰从来不在我的人生计划中。

2006 年,我担任一名信息技术专员。刚入职两个月,我就接手了前任上司留下的大项目。由于经验不足,我常常接到客户的抱怨和投诉。

我想辞职,但后来被公司说服留下。我很努力地工作,但工作量实在庞大,导致压力严重影响我的睡眠。我一直认为,“没有努力是不能实现的事”这一信念崩塌了。

当时,极度失落的我参加了SGM的新年勤行会,并看到担当幕后的青年部和体操表演所展示的喜悦和明朗,以及“青年要有跨越难的信心”等希望话语。当天晚上,我决定试试这个信仰,开始参加学会活动。

我开始唱题后,逐渐鼓起勇气面对我的工作。终于,本来陷入困境的项目上演大逆转,并顺利完成了,甚至还收到客户的感谢信。

后来我还是辞掉了工作,开始自己创业。但日以继夜地工作,不知不觉忽略了家人。一天傍晚,我在准备一项投资计划时,突然感受到一股巨大的压力感,四肢僵硬,不停冒汗。

这时,看到隔壁孩子们玩耍开心的笑着,与身处地狱般的我形成强烈对比。当我停下来的这一刻,突然想到我和家人已经很久没有像这样一起笑过了。我才发现自己只顾着赚钱,忽略了家人,有时还与太太发生冲突。

我重新投入长期被我忽视的学会活动,自己先做出了改变。通过学会活动的磨练,我找到改变家庭不和乐的勇气。这次,我提出开始为家人做饭。令人惊讶的是,太太说她也愿意帮忙。

晚餐后,我们夫妻俩倾心交谈。我渴望已久的一家和乐实现了。我意识到,自身的改变,世界也会随之改变,而开启这股变革的力量,就是日莲佛法。自此,我更勤励于学会活动。

我每天都会阅读池田先生的指导,并付诸实践。之后,我作为学会组织的领导承担起使命,并通过对话和家访积极鼓励男子部员。父母和哥哥目睹我的改变后,他们也决定入信了。

面对生死
宗麟与男子部的同志们

2019 年 4 月,当时我在与会友进行对话,突然呼吸困难。我提前结束了对话回家休息,但情况并不乐观。太太急忙带我去医院,短短15 分钟的车程,我大口喘气地握住她的手。在失去知觉之前,心中对自己喊道: “现在不能死!我还有要完成的使命!”

我在重症监护病房醒来,被送去做检查和小手术。结果显示我被诊断出患有心房纤维性颤动,因心跳异常导致心悸、疲劳和呼吸急促,甚至有可能导致中风和心力衰竭。我的情况非常严重,即使躺着刷牙,心跳仍然高达每分钟110次。

出院后,我更加痛苦。每天都活在恐惧和焦虑中,感到随时都会停止呼吸。因为经常呼吸急促,我不敢一人独自在家里。如果我必须出去,太太就会陪着我,我们总是会事先找到最近的医院,以防万一。早上醒来时,身体会不受控制地颤抖。

那时,我感到自己非常无用,因为无法唱题,也无法面对男子部员。

赢取胜利的信心
宗麟通过自己的改变,与太太(右2)合心建立和乐家庭!

当时,岳父鼓励我唱诵大量的题目,以信心赢取绝对的胜利。我回到御本尊跟前彻底唱题,决心摆脱困境,从这深渊中爬出来。

我阅读了池田先生的《一生成佛抄讲义》,明白只要持续唱题,胸中的佛界就会如太阳冉冉升起,就能鼓起挑战眼前困境的勇气。

我重新挑战参加学会活动。这对我来说非常艰难的决定,因为在飞驰的汽车里,即使短短 的15 分钟车程也会让我感到全身僵硬。但我挑战自己一定要到达会场,不停联络我的男子部员并鼓励他们。在奋战不懈的过程中,我深刻自觉使命感,终于克服了对死亡的恐惧。

至今,我的心律波动稳定,虽然医生说类似的病例可能会在三至七年后再次复发,但我并不担忧。

正因我拥有真正的“人生宝藏”——信心,任何目标都以信心取胜。池田先生说过,信心强盛的人才是最富裕的人,而我是真正富裕的,拥有“心的富裕”,无论处于任何情况下,都能充实与欢喜地生活。

因为凝视了死亡,让我更加坚决要为“自他永远的幸福”献出我的一生!

摘自2021年4月《宇宙》

I was born in Sungai Siput, Perak. Since young, I worked for my father’s small business and with the wages I earned, I bought whatever I liked. When I studied overseas, I worked part-time to pay for my living expenses.

I have always worked hard to achieve my targets, so I strongly believed that there’s nothing I couldn’t achieve without working hard.

Later, when my girlfriend (now wife) told me about Nichiren Buddhism and the Soka Gakkai, I showed no interest at all. Religion was never in my life plan as my material desires could all be obtained through sheer hard work.

In 2006, I took on a job as an information technology specialist.  Only two months new, I took up a huge project left behind by my former superior. With little experience, I performed below expectations and was frequently complained about by the client.

I wanted to resign from the company but was convinced otherwise. I worked harder but the workload only piled up resulting in stress that affected my sleep. My belief that nothing cannot be achieved through hard work crumbled.

Dejected and miserable, I joined in a New Year’s Gongyo meeting where I saw the joy and hope portrayed by the youth division members supporting behind-the-scenes as well as the gymnastics performance. The display banner also urged youth to overcome all difficulties with confidence. That evening, I decided to give this religion a try and started participating in SGM activities. 

I started chanting and gradually gathered the courage to face my work. Finally, the ailing project turned around and was successfully completed. I even received a letter of appreciation from the client.

I then left my job to start my own business. Working day and night, I unknowingly neglected my family. One evening while working to finalize an investment plan, I was overwhelmed with great pressure. My limbs froze and I sweated profusely.

Seeing how the neighboring kids laughed enjoyably while they played, I felt the stark contrast of being trapped here in a hellish state. As I put my work down, it hit me that it’s been a while since our family laughed together like that. I was too engrossed in making money that I’ve neglected my family and conflicted with my wife.

I picked myself up again through my long-neglected SGM activities. Here, I found the courage to transform the situation at home. I offered to start cooking for the family. Surprisingly, my wife offered to help out as well.

We enjoyed dinner and had a warm conversation afterward. My longing for a harmonious family came true. I realized that when one changes, the world would follow suit and the power to open up a new circumstance manifest from practicing Nichiren Buddhism. This inspired me to participate in SGM activities even more diligently.

Every day, I would read SGI President Ikeda’s guidance and put his words into action. I then took up the mission as a leader in SGM and actively encouraged the YMD members through dialogues n home visits. Then, my parents and elder brother who witnessed my transformation decided to take up faith.

Facing Death
Kenneth (second from left), having a gathering with his comrades-in-faith, says, "I have been very fortunate to know many good friends while joining SGM activities. Together, we have been through ups and downs but our hearts as comrades will never change."

Amidst a dialogue session in April 2019, I suddenly had trouble breathing. I concluded the session early to rest at home but my condition worsened. My wife took me to the hospital right away and in that short 15-minutes drive, I gasped for air and held on to her hand. Just before losing consciousness, I yelled to myself “Don’t die now! I still have a mission to accomplish!”

I woke up in the intensive care unit and was sent for tests and minor surgeries. The results say that I was diagnosed with atrial fibrillation, where I had abnormal heartbeats leading to palpitation, fatigue, and shortness of breath. This may lead to stroke and heart failure. It was so bad that even when I brushed my teeth lying down, my heartbeat would still increase to 110 beats per minute.

I experienced even worse suffering after being discharged from the hospital. Each day, I lived in fear and anxiety that I would stop breathing at any moment. I’m constantly short of breath and dared not stay home alone. If I had to go out, my wife would take me, and we’d always locate the nearest hospital just in case. As I woke up in the mornings, my body trembled uncontrollably.

I felt incredibly useless as I could not chant nor face the YMD members.

Faith for Achieving Victory
Kenneth with is family filled with determination to stay together through good and bad times.

My father-in-law then encouraged me to chant abundant Daimoku aiming for absolute victory. I chanted to the Gohonzon fervently, determined to break free from my circumstances and climb out of this abyss.

As I read President Ikeda’s lecture on the Gosho entitled “On Attaining Buddhahood in this Lifetime”, I realized that as long as I chant Daimoku, the sun of Buddhism will surely arise in my heart giving me the courage to challenge my predicament.

I also challenged myself to participate in SGM activities once again. It was very tough for me as a short 15-minute drive amongst speeding cars made me stiff. I challenged myself to arrive at the meeting venues without fail and continued to call up my YMD members to encourage them. It was during this ceaseless struggle that I awakened to my mission in life and finally overcame the fear of death.

Today, my heartbeat remained normal and though the doctor pre-empted that a similar heart condition may recur in 3 – 7 years’ time, I am not worried.

I am embracing the true “treasure of life” which is faith, through which we can achieve anything. President Ikeda has said that people with strong faith are the “wealthiest” of all, and I for one felt that I am a truly wealthy person with the “treasures of the heart” which allows me to live happily with a sense of fulfillment in all circumstances.

Facing death squarely, I am determined to dedicate my life to contributing to the eternal happiness of myself and others.

Adapted from the Nov 2020 issue of COSMIC.

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